January 20, 2019

Why I Do This

“The mystery of human existence lies not in just staying alive but in finding something to live for.” – Fyodor Dostoyevsky

I just realized that last week’s blog post was #100. That’s a milestone. Still, I’d been questioning why I bother to blog. I don’t make any money from it (not that I’ve tried to monetize), and it takes up spare time I should be using to write my memoir. On top of that, it’s not always easy coming up with something to write about each week.

So why do I keep blogging? It’s not fame – as an introvert, I don’t need that – and it’s not fortune – as previously noted, my blog doesn’t generate one red cent. But there are a few other reasons.

It’s a hobby. Besides reading, this is the longest period of time that I’ve ever devoted to a hobby. Like most hobbies, it costs me money, meaning I pay someone to look after the IT component. I dislike that side of blogging, and I don’t want to learn.

I simply want to write. Blogging is an enjoyable hobby so I don’t begrudge paying a fee to keep it going. It’s also great therapy so the money I spend contributes to my own well-being.

And when I decide on something to write about, I have to think up something to say. This isn’t as easy as it sounds. All in all, my brain gets a good workout, and I’m hoping this will keep dementia at bay.

It makes me a better writer. The trick to being a better writer is to write. I’m a bit lazy when it comes to writing, and if I’m not beholden to something, I’ll spend all my free time reading. So having a blog that a few people read each week keeps me pounding away on the keyboard.

It makes me think. I have to come up with something to write each week so I tend to stay more attuned to what’s going on around me in the hope that something will serve as fodder for my next post.

It makes me walk the talk. Sometimes I offer advice on my blog, not that I expect people to pay too much attention. I’m not an expert in anything, really, but I have some life experience. One thing I’ve found is that blogging has helped me to develop some healthier habits. If I’m going to yap about the benefits of exercise and eating well, and then don’t take my own advice, I’m a hypocrite, and I’d prefer not to be labelled as such.

It expands my social network. I’ve met new people through blogging, mostly through various forms of social media. I’m not suggesting these people have become close friends, but I’ve made connections with some great writers who inspire me and whose work I enjoy following.

It gives me the opportunity to be a positive influence. When I get positive feedback on a blog post, it gives me a sense of satisfaction knowing that something I wrote resonated with someone. It’s not really an ego thing. I truly hope that from time to time, something I write is exactly what someone might need to hear.

It gives me confidence. I don’t like the limelight, and I prefer that other people get the recognition. However, blogging has made me put myself “out there.” It’s gotten me out of my own head and allowed me to open up. We’re all dealing with issues, and through blogging, I admit many of mine. Plus, I like to think there are other people who can relate in some way.

It captures my thinking. If I ever have grandchildren, I hope they’ll read my blog and learn a bit more about me. I think it’s even been good for my kids to read what’s on my mind. Friends and acquaintances too. They can learn from me, laugh with (and at) me, and say, “Hey, I know that nutty lady. She’s all right.” A blog is timeless and captures my little piece of history.

I don’t blog to get rich, famous or amass a huge following. I blog primarily for myself and hope that others might benefit now and then from what I write. I’m proud that this is blog post #101. It’s proven to me that I can actually commit to something and keep it going. Of course, it’s also a vehicle for leaving my own little mark on the world – a bit of immortality in a sense.

I will write another 100 blog posts. After that, we’ll see what happens. To all my readers, thank you so much for sharing in my journey!